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>hello blog!

so, i am very excited about VidCon. i mean, VERY excited. i mean, i think about it at least once a day. if it’s not getting stuff to be signed and how i’m going to acquire those signatures for both myself and the Guide, then it’s the birthday celebration part of the weekend and figuring out the logistics of it.
turning another year older is not impressive to me in the least. in fact, i would very much like NOT to get a year older. the celebration with friends who normally are in different states and countries however, sounds wonderful!

there are two things i’m doing, appropriately on video, for VidCon.
1) i’m doing a three part series (there are three History Mondays on 5BD till VidCon) covering cameras and video and the like.
2) i’m going to be vlogging every day from June 9th – July 8th in a project designed for all those going to VidCon to a) get to know each other and b) dust off those neglected channels and get reacquainted with video making. VidCon does, after all, stand for Video Conference.

so last night i watched a bunch of Gears‘ (the one responsible for this brilliant idea) videos and he did a thing where he vlogged every day in March. (i don’t know if he was aware of VEDA at the time) and he did it so that he would stop planning every aspect of his videos, from his background to his clothing. and this new project of his, vlogging every day till VidCon, will help me achieve goals a and b, but it will also help me do what Gears did in March. stop being so freaking self-conscious!!!

i’ve done it with this blog. my last blog post would NEVER have happened if i had been self conscious about it. it’s so fangirl! “i don’t want to be seen as a fangirl! ugh! i’d rather be dead!” and, of course, everyone reading my blog is going to disregard every post i’ve ever written before, and every blog after, and judge me solely on the “fangirl blog.”

so i need to have the same approach with my vlog. nothing will ever get posted to that channel if i keep being self-conscious about it! i have footage from at least 2 or 3 videos that i’ve never posted because i was too self-conscious.

so while we’re talking about things i’m going to start doing, i’ve been wanting to do something, another device to get me vlogging, less self-conscious and getting to know people better: no comments, only vid response.

i can record video and post to YT straight from my phone, and my video camera has a feature to download straight to YT, so it’s not like loading a bunch of response videos would be a hassle. i have a small arsenal of technology that makes it incredibly easy. so after VidCon, this is my plan!

also, Daily Booth. i HAVE NOT been posting to DB enough! and once again, it’s because i don’t want to take a boring picture. god forbid i’m not perceived as absolutely brilliant and fascinating! so expect those a bit more often as well! 🙂

so that should more or less cover my online plans for the next 2 months. XD <!– text

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>video no go?

>so earlier i made and sent off my “secret” video. and i was SO happy cuz i was like, “yes! finished! and it’s not painfully boring! (i was so afraid it would be really boring) so glad that’s done and sent!” and then all the sudden, now that i’ve already sent it and it’s definitely much, much too late, right as i was about to drag my finger across the touch pad and click the “shut down” button i thought, “what if nobody likes it? what if everybody thinks it’s stupid? maybe i shouldn’t post that. maybe i should make a new one.” and then i realized, i can’t make a new one because i already sent it in!!! why do my second thoughts always come to me as i’m drifting to sleep/shutting down my computer?! (which is the same thing in my head. the terms are interchangeable.)

i have decided that the only thing i can do in the mean time is be happy about being done with my P4A video! now this is particularly special to me because it is my first P4A video! i hope that the comments it gets aren’t, “wow. this one’s not that good.” that and, “what’s with the intro? that’s the worst thing i’ve ever heard!”

wait. i started that paragraph in happy. when did it get all, “i’m just as paranoid about my P4A vid as i am about my ‘secret’ vid”-ish? because i’m not as paranoid about my P4A vid! i’m just mildly self-conscious. (which is pretty much my constant state of being.)

so yeah. now that i’ve gotten my ya-ya’s out, i’m going to bed!<!–

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