>bad mood

Fatigue Meter: 10

Chelsea and the terrible, horrible, no good, very bad day.

ok, so it wasn’t that bad (like at all), but i still wanted to say that. (book nostalgia FTW!)i wish i had written my blog earlier when i was in a better mood.

as much as i’d like to say i’m totally over it, i’m totally not over the fact that my plan for an epic video was epic alright. an epic fail.

so, i sent this tweet this morning. and no one replied. which rather sucked since i think it was a genuinely good idea.

it’s times like these that make you want to delete your twitter account. :/

anywho, since i sent the “important” email with all the details that everyone needs to know for the big meeting on Sunday, i really haven’t wanted to think about the Guide. and for the most part, i haven’t thought about it. i have tweets set to be sent automatically, so the one today was actually written days ago.

ugh! i’m talking about twitter again!

from Feb 5th:
so i’ve been thinking a lot lately about how awkward and slightly creepy it is to have friends online. don’t get me wrong, i love you guys. but, see, that’s the problem. it’s kind of creepy that i love you guys.
let’s look at the facts. with the exception of one person, i have never actually met any of the people i talk to online. i have a few people’s addresses, but no one’s phone numbers. i know what all of you look like, sound like, and quite a few of your favorite things. i know your aspirations and even a few of your fears. i also happen to talk to most of you at least once a day. even if only briefly via twitter. and if i don’t talk to you, i at least get an update via twitter/facebook/youtube/your blog.
ps. i wish the content of my blogs matched the quality of most of my titles. :/

my thoughts now: first, i’d like to point out that this is a perfect example of the fact that sometimes i write the last line before i’m finished with the post. i did that with my last blog entry as well.

ugh! i keep trying to turn this blog around and make it positive, but my mood just really sucks! every time i make an attempt to turn it around, it just u-turns and goes right back to negative! i can’t write an entry about internet friends when i’m this moody. ok, i’m going to stop this blog post before it gets any worse, and i’m going to bed before my mood can get any worse.

good night!
<!– text

rows of: 2 pics should be 375×250 or 300X500 3 pics should be 200×150 or 200×300 4 pics should be 175×100 or 175×225 1 picture should be 700×420 or 420×700 2 videos should be 234×380 –>

>seriously?! – BEDA 20

Fatigue Meter: 5

i told myself earlier that i should just blog and get it out of the way, but did i listen to myself? of course not! freakin’ know-it-all!
no, i had to say, “no, i’ll have PLENTY of time later! i won’t even get tired!” yeah, i don’t know who’s character and past experiences i was thinking of when i came to that conclusion, but it clearly wasn’t mine!

and quickly, for the record, i tried to upload all the icons for the rest of the month again tonight and it worked flawlessly. i didn’t do ANYTHING different from last night. the interenet (or at least Photobucket) was just intent upon fucking me over.

so today’s challenge was trying not to fall asleep at work. i wasn’t really tired, it was just really boring. i was NOT in a work mood today. :/

also, one of my coworkers wanted me to make a PDF of a report. i suggested that they send me the Word doc and i’d convert it, as opposed to running it through the copier and scanning it to PDF, because that way it’s a smaller file.
Coworker: “Oh! It is?”
Me: “Yep!” 🙂
Coworker: “Ok, i’ll tell Dave to send you the file.”
Not 5 minutes pass when said coworker walks into my office and says, “so Dave’s gonna send you the file, so just convert it to a PDF, so that way it’s a smaller file, ok?”


i wish i were exaggerating. even just a little bit. but i’m not. i think i should at least get a gold star or something for simply replying, “ok” and nodding instead of letting the commentary in my head stream out of my mouth, which was, “seriously?! i just told YOU that not 5 minutes ago! you’re telling me now?”

and i’m not even going to get into the time she gave me a crash course in how to effectively change modes on the phone. oh wait, i did that rant, didn’t i? see? i don’t always neglect my blog!

well, i’ve got crap to finish and email to the Guide staff, so i’ll end it here. see you tomorrow blogsphere!

ps. Lydia, now every time i say, “seriously?!” i think of “Really?! with Lydia and Chelsea.” (omg! that poor hookworm!)<!– text

rows of:
2 pics should be 375×250 or 300X500
3 pics should be 200×150 or 200×300
4 pics should be 175×100 or 175×225

1 picture should be 700×420 or 420×700

2 videos should be 234×380 –>

>in no rush (finally!)

Fatigue Meter: 0

oh, hai blog!

so i’m in a MUCH better mood than when i last got down to the business of blogging. though i must give myself props for being that concise while i was half asleep! i can’t be that terse when i’m fully conscious and making my best efforts!

however, even twitter, the ever-so-famed “micro-blogging” with its 140 characters, would have been infinitely more descriptive than i was yesterday.

so, there is solid proof that Sean is in the running for most awesome being in the universe. and by solid i mean not so much tangible as available online: http://bit.ly/NFBook. and if you ask me (a girl who has stronger, healthier online friendships than IRL friendships), that’s just as real, if not more so.

ok, that “taxes! grr!” thing was cuz… well, for all the paranoid worrying (which correct me if i’m wrong, but i think i’m known for) that i do, my mom cranks that up a notch. …or ten.
so a situation that i was already tensely biting my lips over, she was screaming about. i love my mom. generally a smarty, witty, caring, loving, compassionate and CALM person. *carefully measuring words* she was driving me FUCKING crazy!!! i was exhausted just WATCHING her freak out! just imagine, if at all possible, that i looked like the stable, calm thinker in the situation. yeah. it was that scary.

so, tonight was taxes panic part two. you see, i was trying to file online. the feds took my money (i actually owed this year! ugh!!!), not a hitch. the state, who owes me, is like REJECTED! part of the problem is the site i chose to use, but i’m not even going to delve into the finer, more snooze worthy details. point is, i had to print out a form, scribble my John Hancock (i HATE that term! why did i even use it? i get it, i know the history of the term. but I am NOT Mr. Hancock, and… well it’s just inaccurate!), and drive down to the post office to drop it off. left at about 8, returned at about 9. round trip without psycho bumper to bumper traffic for the last three blocks is about 20 minutes. maybe 25. yeah, exactly. endless fun! i only wish i could do this EVERY night! (did you, did you catch the sarcasm? careful, it’s heavy!)

so, because i know you were TOTALLY craving MORE talk about the Guide in this blog, here we go! i am currently working on an outline for how the staff will be organized so that we can competently handle the (hopefully) thousands of submissions. also, i’m organizing the agenda for the staff only meeting that needs to take place so that we can discuss, perfect and enact this outline. i LOVE working on the Guide! i definitely went to school for the right stuff. (journalism) 🙂

so, tomorrow the rental car goes back. you remember the rental car, right? that was a fun story! so yeah. the thing too depressing to mention then, we’ll just tackle real quick now. my mother and i were saving up for the down payment on a new car. ALL of that money went to fix our old car. yeah. we’re still not over that. so now i’m like, can we just keep the rental? i like that little, zippy car! except i want it in a Honda version (the “Fit.” ugh! what an awful name for a car!). i’m just a little scared every time i hit the brake in that Toyota. :/

man! we’re at the half way point fellow BEDAers! yay for us! 😀

P.S. @Lydia i love that you’re enjoying the “Fatigue Meter”! maybe i should make icons for my blog after this too? and for the Guide blog if i can! 😀

P.S.S i like the new ALL CAPS album more than i thought i would. and i thought i would like it, so what i mean is i like it A LOT! (listen to it on my Ning page)<!– text

rows of:
2 pics should be 375×250 or 300X500
3 pics should be 200×150 or 200×300
4 pics should be 175×100 or 175×225

1 picture should be 700×420 or 420×700

2 videos should be 234×380 –>

>cute stories – BEDA 12/13


now, we could pretend there was a post yesterday, but then we’d be venturing far past the world of slanted views and technicalities, and straight into delusional. besides, i can’t lie to you blog! lying to you would be like lying to myself. …actually it IS lying to myself. and, frankly, if i’m going to start lying to myself, i might as well go all the way. i’d want to be fabulously rich with a pony. i don’t want to ride the pony of course! i only want it to show that i have enough money to maintain a pony. but i digress!

so, i’m a weirdo who actually enjoys hearing my coworker’s stories about their kids. (they’re just these little people, ya know. yet to be tarnished by the world. how their little minds develop is absolutely fascinating!) so boss #3 is talking about his 2 1/2 yr. old son. “The probability of me finishing these (his green beans) isn’t very high,” he says. god, but i hope when (if) i have kids they say awesome stuff like that!

and while we’re on the topic of cute things: today i discovered i’d used the last of the toilet tissue when i went to replace the roll. i was very loudly complaining about this when my brother walked in and, very sweetly, asked for the empty cardboard roll. “out of toilet tissue? the roll?” he says with an outstretched hand. “what? you want this?” i say, handing it to him. he happily takes it, presses it to his eye, and says, “telescope!” as he walks away. you can’t not love that!

so, i’m getting way to tired to keep writing and i may or may not be having a Skype meeting with Sean tomorrow morning, so i need to sleep so i don’t do anything stupid in a half conscious state. like ok a page that’s in fuschia. not that i think Sean would make a page in fuschia, but still.