almost, but not quite, a complete failure

hi blog!

so now that that irksome BEDA is over and there’s no real reason for me to write, here i am!

so remember when i had a daily blog, that then was an almost daily blog, which then became silent as a fucking tomb? yeah, that was fun, right? not really sure what i’m gonna do about that. like, should i start writing in it again? should i change the focus entirely? like, should i turn it into a photo blog of some kind? …i feel like a photo blog would fail faster. i don’t know. then again, i admittedly haven’t given it much thought. as in the amount of time it’s taken me to write this paragraph is the amount of time i’ve dedicated to it.

in other news (if you really wanna glorify it by calling it that), i still knit stuff. so that’s still a thing. i have a few projects that i’m going to make for a few specific people. i haven’t decided what to do for everyone else. and i’m half-way finished with a hat that i’m procrastinating because working for more than a few hours will result in my hand hurting like a motherfucker for the next week (because of the material). so… that’s the best excuse i can come up with. i’d have a better one, but again, not much time dedicated to it.

so what have i been dedicating my time to? mostly watching TV and writing. …i wish the writing was more extensive than the TV ratio, but it’s not. except for the past couple days. the only problem with the writing progress is it’s quite scattered. i’ve been working on Theta and Delvia (for the past week especially) when i’m supposed to be working on Death Haven. btw, Delvia and Death Haven are working titles, Theta will probably be called Theta. but i don’t know. nothing’s set in stone. i’m just writing it. and not very well. so you can’t depend on me to come up with titles, nor know if they’re permanent ones.

thinking of bad writing, you should see the beginning of a scene in the second act of Theta i wrote the other day. or actually, you shouldn’t. it’s horrible. usually you write something, and you come back the next day, and you gape in horror at the monstrosity and delete as fast as you can whilst thanking God or the universe or whatever you might thank that no one will ever see your ugly shame. but this thing, this character’s introduction to the second act, i knew was horrible as i wrote it. which means it’s far worse than any of my thankfully deleted ugly shame that you shall never see. i mean, i haven’t even worked up the courage to reread. i don’t want to admit to myself that such drivel could be produced by my brain. i’d like to keep sound my fantasy that i’m better than that. and that’s the update on that.

and… well, that’s all i can really think to say. i mean, that was pretty fucking dull as it was, and it can only go downhill from here, so i’ll spare us both and end it here.

…this post. not my life. though, on second thought, you could be right. i might be wasting perfectly good air. but i’m gonna go continue to waste it, or maybe use it wisely (says my mentally stable optimistic side), as i continue to work on Theta and maybe Delvia, but probably not Death Haven when it’s the only thing i should be working on. or maybe i’ll surprise myself and start working on something else altogether, thus putting me further behind on everything else. because that’s just the type of thing i’m wont to do.

# of projects being worked on (writing not included): 5
# of books being worked on: 5
# of ANYTHING finished: 0

winning. #sarcasm

oh hey! just remembered something i AM making progress with, and that’s my reading! hooray for audiobooks! otherwise i’d be a failure at everything. #sadbuttrue

song of the day: Does & Hoes

random picture i took today:

>some day…

>some day, my blog will be sorted and i’ll be able to post on my own domain ( *sigh*
i can’t even tell you how many hours i’ve invested in trying to get my fucking blog up on my site. seriously. it’s fucking ridiculous.

i’ve tried using the WordPress app that comes with my hosting service, i’ve tried manually posting it (both methods i’ve successfully achieved with two other hosting services) and nothing is working. if i was a complete n00b i… i would actually be more screwed, now that i think of it. because i would think i must be doing something terribly wrong. *sigh*

i guess i’m just going to have to contact my hosting service. i really can’t think of anything else i can do. WordPress won’t work. Blogger won’t work- oh! let me tell you a bit about my blogger woes!

so i thought, ok, till i can figure out my WordPress thing, i’ll just set it up to redirect through blogger. it’s a fairly simple process. no worries. this has actually been more frustrating than WP. because while with WP it could be one of a million little quirks (one misplaced character in the code, a software issue, etc.), blogger was actually showing up, and then disappearing. literally. i would enter the address to my blog, and for about 15 min. it would show it, then for an hour it would be gone. then it would magically be back. then it would be gone again. THAT IS NOT LOGICAL!!! it’s either set up correctly, or it’s not. it can’t disappear and reappear. that just doesn’t make any sense in any way and… yeah. that’s the point i gave up.

so, some day, hopefully soon, i’ll have my blog hosted on my own site. until then, i guess we’re just gonna have to go the good old fashioned Blogger route. <!– text

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>let’s get ready to ramble!

>i’m not even gonna look at how long it’s been since i’ve written because i already know the conclusion: it’s been too long.
so i am now reading LOTR. since beginning this endeavor i’ve noticed a strange phenomenon. i avoid reading it despite enjoying it. i can only theorize that this is because of its size. at nearly 2 inches thick, it’s a little bit intimidating. (that’s what she said.)
7NAP is doing pretty well. challenges are in the works. i can’t wait till we start that! 😀
i’ve recently decided that i must begin practicing writing again. you know, like a journalist and not just blogs and random articles for The Guide. even thought i think i should do more stuff for The Guide as well.
so i have a few video ideas right now, and i wanted to do at least one of them last week, but my nose was all stopped up and i sounded weird so i didn’t do it. now i just need to find the time to make my videos.
i’ve also gotta work on putting together my culture packages. apparently Steve and Dome have joined in on the fun. i wish i had been told sooner than just yesterday! and i’m glad i hadn’t already bought stuff! that would’ve sucked if i had already started shopping and then found after the fact that they were participating.
so can i get another hour added to the day? please? please???

Song of the Day:

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>…um, sorry, maybe???

>if you’re like me and follow all the blogs you read in a reader, then you may be seeing some old posts showing up there multiple times. i was fixing little things and experimenting. some things i can’t test with the “preview” button, so i have to publish the blog to see if what i did worked. sorry for spamming up your reader in the process! here, let me redeem myself –> May this link bring you joy. <!– text

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