>as it comes to mind…

>hiya, blog!

you’re totally not gonna believe this, but i TOTALLY forgot about you today! i’ve been thinking all about HNS all day! since we record this week and all.

anywho, there’ll be a vlog concerning that soon enough anyway. (yes. ANOTHER one! what are you trying to say?)

oh! and i think a silly song today!
Remus and the Lupins – Creepy Mustache by ChelseaIRL

so i’ve got 25 minutes. yeah, i think i can do this!

so work was ridiculously monotonous. i felt like i was trying to walk waste deep in thick mud. i feel like i accomplished nothing!

so i’ve been collecting a bunch of potential things to talk about on Thursday. i’m determined to make the first episode of HNS awesome! i’m finding lots of potential material. now i’ve just gotta wade through it and pick out the best.

random revelation: yesterday, i was changing my status notification thingy on Skype, and it had said something about working on secret projects. and i realized that i might as well just keep it saying that. because i’m always working on one secret project or another lately. which is cool cuz they’re all awesome things. but it’s weird, too. last year, i was working on nothing.

thinking of last year: guess what besties? i didn’t know you last year. is that super-weird or waht? it trips me out every time i think about it.

random craving: i wanna just scroll through the geekery pages of Etsy. i never buy anything there cuz i just can’t justify the price (and when i can, i can’t justify the shipping), but i just like to look sometimes. i don’t get to that point where i compulsively buy like i do with t-shirts.

thinking of t-shirts made me think of how i have too many black ones, made me think of colors, made me think of how i hate purple. well, i don’t hate the color itself. in nature it’s gorgeous. and it’s an ok color as colors go. but when it comes to clothing i won’t wear it. i don’t know why, i just won’t. it used to be me and my mother would be clothes shopping and we would find some really cute top. and i would sigh and say, “but it’s purple.” so a couple weeks ago, me and my mom were in Target (of all freakin’ places, right?!) and we see a cute top, and my MOM sighs and says, “oh, but it’s purple.” it was SO WEIRD! it was like hearing my own words coming out of her mouth. the same tone and sentiment behind them. just… a weird experience.

sorry for the free association ramble tonight, blog. but sometimes it just goes like that i suppose. especially when your last few blogs have been you, literally half asleep, typing on your phone keyboard. that is NOT good. but hey! i haven’t failed BEDA yet! unlike in April. that was just shameful.

ok. now with 10 minutes to spare, i leave you, blog. see you tomorrow!

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>paradox banal

>cue music…
Jem – Save Me by ChelseaIRL
and… ACTION!

so hey, blog! how’s it going? …yeah, yeah, yeah. you’re so conceited! all about you! my turn to talk! sheesh!

so, Katie, a friend i met at VidCon, just started vlogging. and in one of her vlogs (the one you will find below), she talks about not really having anything interesting going on and spending most of her time on the computer. and i left a comment that said this (among other things… so yeah ok, i left two comments. don’t judge me!):

and don’t worry if nothing is going on and you spend all your time online. ((secret: that’s almost 100% of vloggers))

like, most of my vlogs, i show one ofο»Ώ the shirts in my collection, tell some weird story, or just talk about my day. πŸ™‚

this comment about the content of my vlogs has got me thinking though. has life in general just gotten less weird, or have i just become numb to it? i mean, surely the world i was in at 18 (the story in my latest vlog) isn’t less weird than the world is now. if anything, the opposite must be true. so why don’t i have as many weird stories?

well, one of the more obvious reasons that comes to mind is that my chief means of transportation is no longer my feet. another is that i’m far more skilled at deflecting weirdos before they can attempt to engage in conversation. but there must be more to it than that!

also, how is it that most of us vloggers, with all our stories and memes and footage, could have, for the most part, boring and uneventful lives? i mean, shouldn’t the people with crazy and exciting lives be vlogging? but then, they don’t log countless hours in front of their computers, do they?

i’m just pointing out that it’s rather strange and incongruous that those who do so little could have so much to talk about. i mean, tell me the name of just ONE vlogger who, at the end of the day, isn’t just a guy/girl alone talking to their camera. school and/or a job, a family, responsibilities. pretty boring. and yet they vlog. and it’s watchable! it’s a paradox, that’s all i’m saying!

ok, blog. i’m gonna go back to my boring life now. πŸ™‚

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>back to blog

>where did the music go??? blog, i’m sorry!!! i don’t… i don’t know what happened! i was all, i’m gonna blog! blog, blog, blog. blog, blog, blog. and then i was working on #hotnerdsexy which was released on Thursday, and i had to… what? you DON’T know about #hotnerdsexy?!?

*pretending i’m ok with this* we shall fix this now.

ok, now that we’re all on the same page we can be friends again. …i mean, we always were friends, yeah.

so now you need FIVE songs! one for today, and to make up for the lack. ready?


Hot Hot Heat – Goodnight Goodnight by ChelseaIRL


Simple Plan – You Don’t Mean Anything by ChelseaIRL


Fall Out Boy – Get Busy Living Or Get Busy Dying by ChelseaIRL


Home Grown – I Love You, Not by ChelseaIRL


Panic at the Disco – Time To Dance by ChelseaIRL

now, the one by Panic at the Disco is about my favorite Chuck Palahniuk book, “Invisible Monsters.” it makes complete sense if you’ve read that book.
the rest of the songs sound happy, but are actually pretty mean.

also, tell me what you thought of #hotnerdsexy! what did you like? what didn’t you like? what should we add? what should we take out? tell me in the comments. or email us! or tweet us.

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>almost a real blog post

>hey blog!

so i can’t seem to stop editing stuff long enough to write a proper blog lately! it’s ridiculous! but hey! at least it’s officially on time tonight! yay! πŸ™‚
so the pilot episode of #hotnerdsexy is officially upon us. if you havent’ already, go listen to the podcast at hotnerdsexy.com subscribe. then follow us (me and Meg) on twitter @hotnerdsexy so you won’t miss a thing!

ok, so i’ve only got two minutes, so i’m gonna go now. full blog tomorrow! πŸ™‚

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>cop out

>i haven’t gone to sleep yet, so this counts as a post on the right day. and now i must go to sleep! good night! <!– text

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>near fail

>hiya blog!

did I completely forget about you, and am I now posting in bed from my phone upon remembering you before I fell asleep? you bet I am! improved with this swype thing, haven’t I?

ok, g’night blog!

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>vlogging changed my life, yo!

>hey blog!

i nearly forgot about you already! can you believe it??? i know!

hmm… a song… a song… here’s one i like!

Nico Vega – So So Fresh by ChelseaIRL

i just love the energy of that song! it’s just bursting! oh, and fun fact: i usually am listening to whatever song i put at the top while i write the rest of the blog. bonus fact: i put the song at the top so you can hit play and listen to it while you read.

there is just not enough time in the day, you know that? i didn’t even go to work today, and yet it feels like i’m still just as behind as without a day off! too many things to do! :/

i must admit, i’m not in much of a blogging mood, all. but that’s because i’m working on my #secretproject right now and i want to be thinking about that, and i can’t talk about it here. at least not till Thursday. so…

what shall we talk about blog? oh! we can talk about how i never did post my 5 part VidCon video! i’m kinda at the point that i think no one cares. so, if anyone still actually cares for me to post it, then i’ll finish editing it. otherwise it’ll just be another thing that sits quietly on my hard drive. there is a small collection of things there. ideas that never came to fruition. poor abandoned videos.

thinking of videos, i really would like to start vlogging more often. i really don’t think i do so often enough. especially considering i only have my channel and 7NAP. and 7NAP is never a chore. i mean, sometimes i don’t feel like vlogging, but i’d rather do it than not.

i’ve been thinking a lot about persona lately. reality vs. perception. my goal in my vlogs is always to be what you get in real life in the present realm. because i think that’s kind of the hardest thing to achieve in a vlog. an actual, accurate representation of yourself. i mean, we all edit out the worst parts. so you’re never really getting the real picture. so my new approach to vlogging is to cut the time of filming. if i want to make a video that’s 4 minutes long, then i should record for no longer than 5 minutes. i mean, there are obviously gonna be moments where i pause and such, but overall i want to keep everything i do in. that way you get the real me. so yeah, that’s the plan. vlog more often and take less time to do it.

ok, i’m about to get rather corny right now, so just skip the next paragraph if you have a weak stomach, but i really think that VidCon changed me. something about spending three days straight surrounded by people who think like you, like the same things you like, and just generally like being nice to each other… it’s like you can’t believe such a thing could be possible until you live in it. and it also makes you kind of feel validated in a way. like, so yeah, none of the people that surround you in your present life get you. but there are literally hundreds of people who are just like you, so it doesn’t really matter. it’s like, “well, you can look at me weird all you want. cuz i know that these other hundred people like what i’m doing.” and that confidence is the way i’ve changed. it’s not some HUGE change. i’m not a different person. i’m just a lot more secure about being that person.

a strange, but relevant example is music. i’ve always been very self-conscious about my musical taste. i really do believe that music says something about what kind of person you are. so i’m kind of afraid that people will judge me if i don’t like the right music or something. in other words, before VidCon, i would NEVER have decided to stick songs i like in all of my blogs for a month. i mean, now and then to convey a certain emotion, but EVERY day?! NO WAY! that leaves me way to exposed!!! but now, it’s ok.

alright, so now that we’ve come full circle, i think i can bid you good night, and go back to working on something that you will (hopefully) think is awesome! πŸ™‚
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>hear the music, get excited, don’t be a douche

>hiya blog!

ok, so first i’m going to apologize to Meg, because she is going to hate the sound quality of this song. but Meg, it’s indie, ok? just listen to the lyrics!

Vroom – Untitled (I Love You[You Can’t Stand Me]) by ChelseaIRL

ok, so… i posted two vlogs today. but hear me out! one was linked to my old channel so that people would know about the new channel. and the other was just, ya know, a vlog. mostly just getting people excited about my secret projects. so now they know one of them has something to do with #hotnerdsexy and that everything will be disclosed on Thursday, but NOTHING else! oh! suspense!!!

i’m gonna keep this up you know? building the hype! πŸ˜€
but honestly i’m just ridiculously excited about this! and i hope that everyone else will like what i’m working on. cuz, it’ll be SOOOO much fun if you do! πŸ˜€

ok, we interrupt your regularly scheduled blog to bring you “he said, she said.” (this JUST happened)

i said (in the comments of PhillyD’s latest Vloggity):
i just can’t stop looking at the clocks! all those clocks! what TIME ZONEο»Ώ ARE THEY IN?!?

ok. vid over. i’m back. such a creepy casting call! i AM in the LA area, and i am NOT game! creeper! XD

then he said:
The1Ray1W1Johnson: @ChelseaIRL hahaha stupid american. timezones r in 1 hr incriments* or 30 mins if u include pei u learn thisο»Ώ in grade 4 those r random times otherwise theyd b mostly pointing to the same minute

so i replied:
@The1Ray1W1Johnson um… i was just joking. it’s very obvious that they’re random. :/

just because i’m American doesn’t mean i’m an idiot. and i don’t know where you’re from, but you might wanna work on not jumping to conclusions, not being condescending, and not being prejudiced against other nations.

ugh! the nerve of some people! first of all, no sense of humor, so obviously worthless. second of all, i’m American, so you assume i don’t know about time zones. and third, i really don’t need you to educate me, thanks so much! just… triple threat nerve! in a word: douche.

see, it’s moments like these when i forget to be awesome and just want to pass out the poison Kool-Aid.

anywho! so you happen to be listening to one of my favorite songs ever. although i’m not very emo IRL, i do have rather emo musical taste. it’s weird and incongruous, i know. and yet, it’s fact. i’m especially a sucker for songs such as this that melodically sound rather happy, but the lyrics are so “aw! sad panda!” or are really mean, a la Fall Out Boy. basically when the music conveys one emotion and the lyrics convey another, i love it!

ok. well, i’m sleepy already, blog and i’ve still got shit to do. so i’ll catch you tomorrow! πŸ™‚

ps. where ARE you Lydia?!? i sent you the thing. email me! or Skype me! or even YouTube me!
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>no progress

>hello blog! check it out! a REAL blog post!

sorry about yesterday, but i had to post my 7NAP video, and i simply didn’t have any more time. i mean, BEDA has priority and everything, but 7NAP comes first.

and now for the music! just one long metaphor!
Hellogoodbye – Homewrecker by ChelseaIRL

why this song? other than the fact that it’s one long metaphor? because i love Hellogoodbye. and i love this song. and i danced to it (and the rest of the album) before going to sleep last night.

so, the plan for today was to go shopping for a car.

…well. we went shopping.

me and my mother hadn’t been to the Body Shop in at least a year. and there was a sale. so we got stuff. let me tell you blog, i smell really good. πŸ™‚

i also got new blush. i needed some. so.

…you know, my day, overall, has been rather uneventful. and i usually read something or see something that inspires me in some way. but nothing really happened today. and since i don’t have anything to tell you, here is my attempt to make up for it:

Chuck Progress

first, i don’t like the idea of being tied to one name for this project. plus, the word play is irresistible. i mean, seriously, how can you not call this “Klosterfuck.” especially with the gratuitious use of the word (fuck) in the first chapter. so, this is what it will be called today.

Klosterfuck

chapter two covered the parallels of the Sims to real life. not as many lols. still enjoyable. again, i can’t get over Klosterman’s pessimistic, super-cynical outlook. but if you can sit through the more conceited and condescending of the cynicism, then the payoff (when he gets to the point) is still worth it. so far. i’ll keep you posted.

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