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ok, seriously, Chelsea? you’re procrastinating your blogs now? but you’re almost done! *shakes head in disappointment*

the most ridiculous part: i had this blog all planned out. what i was going to talk about, there was a theme, just… *sigh* this was going to be the blog that made up for the past couple of weak ones. and then do you know what happened? i started to read Adam the Alien’s blog post about collabs!

ok, less than a minute. gotta hit post!
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>you can call me Monday – BEDA 28

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so blog, we’re almost done blogging every day in April. i still haven’t found something to do in May, but who knows? maybe i’ll find inspiration on May 1st.

so yesterday i saw the movie Chloe. now i generally liked the movie but i thought a couple of scenes were a bit pornographic and unnecessary.

my mom (not having seen it yet): so, what did you think of it?
me: i dunno. i liked it. but some scenes were a bit pornographic.
my mom: well, you are a bit of a prude, so… *shrugs*

my mother called me a prude!!! wha… how… just… wtf?

so, on May 10th, i’m gonna be in a new collab channel. (i’ll still be do Friday on 7NAP, i’ll just be doing this as well) this one was thought up by my friend Austin during her walk home. she was inspired by the song “Hey Kristina” by ALL CAPS. in particular the line, “Hey Kristina, i’m one of the 5 biggest dorks i know.” hence the channel name, “5 Biggest Dorks.”

So this is gonna be bi-weekly. or from a viewer standpoint, Mon-Wed-Fri one week, then Tue-Thu the next week. so there’ll be posts every week, but we’ll only be posting every other week. which is good because this isn’t just a get-to-know-you collab. i actually have to plan and probably (at least loosely) script my video. The idea is five people, each nerdy in their own way. i’m the history nerd. and i’m on Monday. so i’m starting of the week this time, instead of being nestled deep into the week where no one will notice me too much.

but i’m really excited about it too. cuz i’ve been wanting to do another project because i want to do something that makes me blog more often, and i wanted to do something different from 7NAP. so i said yes before i even knew what i was doing when Austin brought it up today. it took a while of me and Austin talking it out before i decided to do history. i kept thinking of it as this really dull torture full of research topics i don’t care about. because that’s what history was for me in school. but that’s not this. this is the parts of history that i find interesting. researching and learning about them will be fun, not tedious and torturous.

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>write about Alan

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so, i’m just gonna be honest: i’m still not inspired. but i am listening to Alan Lastufka’s new CD. only 2 tracks in so far so there’s only 2 things i can say so far: 1) i don’t know what i was expecting, but i was a bit surprised. 2) i like it so far.
and one more thing, i love the way it sounds like you’re listening to the radio. that’s a really cool idea. extra awesome points.
maybe i’ll talk more about it tomorrow, when i’ve listened to the whole thing.
oh, and if anyone’s wondering how i’m already listening to the album when the pre-orders just started today (you obviously haven’t pre-ordered it yourself, nor been following Alan’s VEDA), you get the whole 2 disc album complete with album art for download as soon as you order it. i only wish they had started this with the ALL CAPS album. i swear i seriously thought about emailing Alan and presenting him with my case for why he should send me the ALL CAPS digitally. i didn’t because i figured he’d think i was completely mad. well, i guess i was wrong. though it does make me wonder if he came up with the idea on his own or if someone as crazy and impatient as me asked him to send the CD digitally. (my case was going to be “i already paid for it. i’m going to rip the CD as soon as i receive it anyway. you’ve got the money, i want to listen to it on my ipod. why not just let me have it now?”)
well, as fascinating as this blog has been, i’m going to have to end it now. i plan to write something much more interesting tomorrow. i mean, there’s only 3 blogs left. gotta make ’em good right? (or at least decent.) 🙂
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>uninspired – BEDA 26

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sorry blog. i have yet to be inspired tonight. i really have nothing interesting to say at the moment. i’m sure you’re arguing that i never have anything interesting to say. to which i reply that this is true, and we both know this, but it’s just plain mean spirited and in poor taste for you to rub it in my face.

hopefully i’ll have a better, longer, more inspired blog tomorrow. (wow, that sentence looked like it was headed for “that’s what she said” territory for a second there! XD)<!– text

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>real friends online – BEDA 25

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ok, i have limited time, but i’m in a much better mood, so let’s try this again shall we?

from Feb 5th:
so i’ve been thinking a lot lately about how awkward and slightly creepy it is to have friends online. don’t get me wrong, i love you guys. but, see, that’s the problem. it’s kind of creepy that i love you guys.
let’s look at the facts. with the exception of one person, i have never actually met any of the people i talk to online. i have a few people’s addresses, but no one’s phone numbers. i know what all of you look like, sound like, and quite a few of your favorite things. i know your aspirations and even a few of your fears. i also happen to talk to most of you at least once a day. even if only briefly via twitter. and if i don’t talk to you, i at least get an update via twitter/facebook/youtube/your blog.
ps. i wish the content of my blogs matched the quality of most of my titles. :/

the conclusion: once again, i point to how i wrote the last line first. most times i find i write better when i’m leading up to a conclusion. and i really do wish the content of my blogs matched the quality of my titles. ah well!

so yeah. by the average non-computer nerd standard, we don’t know each other. at all. how much can you know about someone if you only ever met them over the computer.

i, NOT being the average non-computer nerd, say that you can know A LOT! especially when the lot of you are on YouTube. we see each other. which makes a HUGE difference. i probably wouldn’t give my … no, i’ll correct myself: i WOULD NEVER give my address to someone i’ve never seen. and i think i’ve actually gotten stricter about that since i’ve become a “youtuber.” before i thought talking to people via video was just an alternative to text. now i know that talking to people via video is a whole different experience!

there are things about personality and inflection and attitude that you just can’t see in text. and there’s something unique about seeing the same person in reality that you’ve already met on your screen. meeting someone you’ve only seen in a picture and text is meeting someone for the first time. meeting someone you’ve talked to via video is just an affirmation.

and if you’re like me, than you realize just how real and valid online friendships can be when your “irl” friendships are mostly online as well. i haven’t seen any of my irl friends in almost a year. any contact i have had with them has been online, and not anywhere near as frequently as i talk to my online friends. our interactions are far less personal as well. we talk in short messages on facebook. the basics are shared and that is all. they don’t watch my videos. they don’t read my blogs. they don’t follow me on twitter. i don’t think they even know what daily booth is. it’s not that they don’t have access to these things. it’s that they don’t find value in these things. they view these things as a form of vanity instead of a form of communication.

their interpretation: YT= look at me! blog = look at me! twitter = LOOK at me! daily booth= LOOK AT ME!!!

my interpretation: YT = talk to me (breaks the ice!) blog = tell me your opinion twitter = how’s your day? daily booth = let me share

all of it is interactive. it’s not some psycho, narcissistic exhibitionism. it’s not some twisted, permissible voyeurism. it’s not, in fact, creepy. it’s communication.

unfortunately, if it’s not your method of communication, it doesn’t seem valid. but aren’t we lucky to know how very valid, and real, and wonderful it is. 🙂 <3 <!– text

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>boy or girl? – BEDA 24

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hi blog! so, as promised, grumpy Chelsea went to sleep last night and awoke as refreshed, even-tempered, sound-minded, messy-haired, happy Chelsea. i would have linked to the grumpy Chelsea 7NAP video yesterday, but it was still uploading, so here it is today:

so, yes, i still think it epically sucked that i didn’t get to make the super-fun video i wanted to make due to lack of tweet participation, but i think i made a pretty good video despite me not wanting to even look at my camera, let alone turn it on, talk at it for 10 minutes, and then spend 45 minutes editing. that’s right. 45 minutes, sometimes an hour. aka i suck at editing. don’t judge me.

but i digress. actually no, i didn’t digress at all. i was completely on topic, however not the topic i would like to blog about today, and i rather like saying “digress” so i said it anyway. i also like saying “remiss” but i seldom get to say it. however now, i really am digressing.

so here it is kids! blog 24! (except not literally blog 24 because i kinda failed a couple times. :/)

(wait, are you cheering about the blog, or the fail?)

so, i’m making a sincere effort to catch up on the backlog in my sub box. and, in doing that, i’m making a lot of comments today. and sometimes, when i comment on a guy’s stuff, i tend to say things that are very girly because i am, after all, a girl, but i have a kind of guyish s/n. (coolhandjohnny) more than once i have found myself adding to the end of my comment, “i’m a girl btw.” i was about to do it today, but then left it off. the comment was on an sxephil video and i said, “i love that you love me in a weird way, and i love you in a weird way as well.” (or something extremely similar.) and sometimes there are videos that ask for female viewer opinions that i also feel it necessary to append my disclaimer.

the thing is: is it necessary to append my disclaimer?

again, i say i didn’t add it the sxephil love comment because i thought, “well, worst case scenario people think i’m a strange guy or gay guy.” which isn’t bad, i’d just much rather people know that i’m a girl.
now i chose my s/n because i wanted something generic, maybe even a bit guyish because, it’s sadly still a fact that, male opinions get more respect than female. i’ve been in debates in comment sections before where, when they knew i was a girl, the rebuttal included sexist remarks that called me out as inferior for being a woman. while i’ve also gotten remarks from equally sexist guys who said sexist remarks to the female sounding s/n’s (like sexyangel), but gave me a legitimate, albeit idiotic, answer.

so it’s both served me well, and failed me. i also find that it’s rather unique, so it does serve as identifying me as the individual that is coolhandjohnny. if you see that s/n, you can pretty much rest assured that it’s me. but also, it comes from the movie Cool Hand Luke. and while i remember the impression the movie left behind (i cried and everything!), i don’t remember too much of the movie itself. and as such, does it represent the individual that is me?

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>bad mood

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Fatigue Meter: 10

Chelsea and the terrible, horrible, no good, very bad day.

ok, so it wasn’t that bad (like at all), but i still wanted to say that. (book nostalgia FTW!)i wish i had written my blog earlier when i was in a better mood.

as much as i’d like to say i’m totally over it, i’m totally not over the fact that my plan for an epic video was epic alright. an epic fail.

so, i sent this tweet this morning. and no one replied. which rather sucked since i think it was a genuinely good idea.

it’s times like these that make you want to delete your twitter account. :/

anywho, since i sent the “important” email with all the details that everyone needs to know for the big meeting on Sunday, i really haven’t wanted to think about the Guide. and for the most part, i haven’t thought about it. i have tweets set to be sent automatically, so the one today was actually written days ago.

ugh! i’m talking about twitter again!

from Feb 5th:
so i’ve been thinking a lot lately about how awkward and slightly creepy it is to have friends online. don’t get me wrong, i love you guys. but, see, that’s the problem. it’s kind of creepy that i love you guys.
let’s look at the facts. with the exception of one person, i have never actually met any of the people i talk to online. i have a few people’s addresses, but no one’s phone numbers. i know what all of you look like, sound like, and quite a few of your favorite things. i know your aspirations and even a few of your fears. i also happen to talk to most of you at least once a day. even if only briefly via twitter. and if i don’t talk to you, i at least get an update via twitter/facebook/youtube/your blog.
ps. i wish the content of my blogs matched the quality of most of my titles. :/

my thoughts now: first, i’d like to point out that this is a perfect example of the fact that sometimes i write the last line before i’m finished with the post. i did that with my last blog entry as well.

ugh! i keep trying to turn this blog around and make it positive, but my mood just really sucks! every time i make an attempt to turn it around, it just u-turns and goes right back to negative! i can’t write an entry about internet friends when i’m this moody. ok, i’m going to stop this blog post before it gets any worse, and i’m going to bed before my mood can get any worse.

good night!
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>seeing the arrow

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because damned Alex Day turns off comments on his blog after a while, i can’t make this comment on the appropriate post. but i can’t just not share this either.

now, i read that post before, and it bugged me then. now, for some reason, it was still in my reader “unread”. which allowed it to bug me again. what, exactly is it that bugs me?

well, dear reader, i make my living by, among other things, sending FedEx packages. For the past 2 years there hasn’t been a work day gone by without me seeing one. Therefore, my complete bewilderment at having never seen said arrow in the logo absolutely infuriated me! however, upon the first read of that blog entry, it was a busy day at work and i had to spend my time sending FedEx and not staring at it.

but today i was determined. “dammit, if anyone should see that arrow, it should be me!” i thought. “i’m gonna walk to my back area and stare at that FedEx box (there is, in fact, a large sized FedEx box sitting back there) until i see that arrow!” and i got up, marched to the back and stared at the FedEx box. i frowned, as i saw nothing. “maybe if i tilt my head, look from different angles, another perspective?” a small tilt to the right, and i FINALLY SAW IT! there the arrow was. and i was so excited, i had to come share with you about it! i won’t tell you where it is, because that moment when your perception shifts is magical and i wouldn’t want to deprive you of that. but here’s the logo so you can see it for yourself! 🙂

in hindsight, i coulda just asked the FedEx guy. but, honestly, where’s the fun in that?
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>slanted views and technicalities

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Fatigue Meter: 8

Location: Firmly Settled in the Land of Slanted Views and Technicalities

well, if you want to get technical, this is the middle of the night for me. i’ll be going to sleep and wake up in the morning.

there is SO much to say, but i really do need to go back to sleep. (i woke up like 10 minutes ago.)

so yeah.

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>seriously?! – BEDA 20

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Fatigue Meter: 5

i told myself earlier that i should just blog and get it out of the way, but did i listen to myself? of course not! freakin’ know-it-all!
no, i had to say, “no, i’ll have PLENTY of time later! i won’t even get tired!” yeah, i don’t know who’s character and past experiences i was thinking of when i came to that conclusion, but it clearly wasn’t mine!

and quickly, for the record, i tried to upload all the icons for the rest of the month again tonight and it worked flawlessly. i didn’t do ANYTHING different from last night. the interenet (or at least Photobucket) was just intent upon fucking me over.

so today’s challenge was trying not to fall asleep at work. i wasn’t really tired, it was just really boring. i was NOT in a work mood today. :/

also, one of my coworkers wanted me to make a PDF of a report. i suggested that they send me the Word doc and i’d convert it, as opposed to running it through the copier and scanning it to PDF, because that way it’s a smaller file.
Coworker: “Oh! It is?”
Me: “Yep!” 🙂
Coworker: “Ok, i’ll tell Dave to send you the file.”
Not 5 minutes pass when said coworker walks into my office and says, “so Dave’s gonna send you the file, so just convert it to a PDF, so that way it’s a smaller file, ok?”

OH MY GOD! SERIOUSLY!?!

i wish i were exaggerating. even just a little bit. but i’m not. i think i should at least get a gold star or something for simply replying, “ok” and nodding instead of letting the commentary in my head stream out of my mouth, which was, “seriously?! i just told YOU that not 5 minutes ago! you’re telling me now?”

and i’m not even going to get into the time she gave me a crash course in how to effectively change modes on the phone. oh wait, i did that rant, didn’t i? see? i don’t always neglect my blog!

well, i’ve got crap to finish and email to the Guide staff, so i’ll end it here. see you tomorrow blogsphere!

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